“I had finally found the kind of relationship that was meant for me. Finally! But what really struck me was that I didn’t even know it existed before.” Venus
It’s been a few years since I sat down to write my first post on this blog, What the fuck is cuckolding? and I have been thinking a lot about what was going through my mind at that time and what was motivating me to write.
Several months earlier I had met a guy on tinder who introduced me to this kind of relationship and it was like a feeling of relief – I had finally found the kind of relationship that was meant for me. Finally! But what really struck me was that I didn’t even know it existed before. I knew I wanted something like that but I had no idea that I could actually have it. It had me wondering how many other women out there don’t know it exists either, and of those, how many like myself would really love it. So that is why I sat down and wrote – to let other women know, hey this might be of interest to you.
Fast forward three years and I’m wondering if I’ve been at all successful with that goal. My biggest reach is through my blog and my Twitter and through stats and polls I’ve learned that 95% to 97% of my readers are men, both single and attached. This is not exactly what I’ve been hoping for.
I’ve come to learn that women just are not online reading about these things and why I don’t know, but they just aren’t here. The men are online consuming the cuckolding jerk off material and a few are genuinely interested in learning about cuckolding relationships. This is why there is so much cuck porn on Twitter and used to be on Tumblr. That’s why when a cuckolding “chat” room opens up, it’s dominated by guys sharing pics of bulls and wives and cuckolding porn while the actual conversation rooms are quiet. This is why women are turned off by it all – the representation of cuckolding online is based in porn fantasy and not reality. Where is the legitimacy to this kind of relationship?
I get it – women and men are very different with what turns them on – and I think at times I’ve been guilty of feeding into the whole visual jerk off material that men want.
So….what do I do next? I’ve written a lot on here over the years and I’ve spoken quite a bit on various podcasts about this kind of relationship, and perhaps that’s as good as it will get. It’s been an effort that I’ve managed to fit in outside of my full time normal job and full time family and life responsibilities. At times it’s been a lot of work and although I love it, I’m wondering if it’s worth continuing. Maybe despite my efforts, cuckolding relationships will remain hidden from women who could possibly love that kind of relationship and perhaps that’s just something I need to accept.
“For me, New York has always been a bucket list city for me. I’ve felt drawn to it for some reason so to be there for New Year’s Eve surrounded by people I care about meant the world to me.” Venus
I just got back from a week in New York City. It was amazing – my first time there – and I totally fell in love with that city! The beautiful architecture and the way the buildings contrast each other and fit together like pieces of a puzzle, the energy of the city with the traffic, the people, and the nighlife, and the food – yummmm! Oh and the shopping!! I splurged and bought myself a pair of black Christian Louboutin heels as a Christmas gift to myself – something I’ve always wanted to do. Trust me, they are sexy as fuck and worth every penny!
One of my best girlfriends joined me on the trip and together we set out on adventures in the beautiful big city. Honestly her and I were just so overwhelmed to be in NYC that there were times we actually cried. For me, New York has always been a bucket list city for me. I’ve felt drawn to it for some reason so to be there for New Year’s Eve surrounded by people I care about meant the world to me. Just thinking about it makes me emotional.
I came home feeling optimistic that 2019 will be a year full of great things to come and my goal is to work towards getting exactly what I want in my life and not feeling selfish about that. I’m grateful for my friends who love me and support me and want to see me succeed. I don’t know what I would do without you – thank you.
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“I’ve missed writing and I wanted to talk a little about what the past few weeks have been like. Let me tell you it’s been “interesting” to say the least.”Venus
To answer the obvious questions: yes I’m writing here, and no I haven’t returned to the cuck lifestyle. I’ve missed writing and I wanted to talk a little about what the past few weeks have been like. Let me tell you it’s been “interesting” to say the least.
First I want to say a very sincere thank you to the many people who sent me messages of encouragement, understanding, and support. I wasn’t able to respond to most of them however I want you to know that I really appreciated what you had to say and it meant a lot to me.
Unfortunately I’ve also been dealing with an anonymous harassing/stalker type lately….sigh. At first I thought maybe this person was a little intelligent by the way he sent me a fake email which was fishing for my personal information (he was successful in getting my google number) but after that the smarts ended and the stupid became obvious. Since then he has texted me trying to pretend he is someone I met last summer. I smelled bullshit right away, laughed at him, and promptly told him to go fuck himself. Then the fucktard called me while trying to fake a woman’s voice and accuse me of trying to steal “her” husband. This last one was especially hilarious and I nearly died laughing before hanging up. I have no idea why this person is trying all of this but if this fucking loser thinks I’m afraid of being exposed or something….little does he know…..haha!!
Another peculiar thing that has happened recently is the interest from some of my black guys. Once they heard I’ve given up on finding a cuck, some have told me they want to actually date me. I’m not sure that’s a road I want to go down right now but it’s interesting nonetheless.
So while I may not be writing about cuckolding as much as I did in the past, one of my friends said to me today I can always write about my Queen of Spades adventures because that always continues for me. Although the past month I’ve been very busy with work, BBC, and preparing for an upcoming move, I’m also planning on getting a much needed touch up done on one of my QoS tattoos so I will post another update when I can.
“For all of the women who may be reading this, please don’t let this discourage you. This kind of relationship has the potential to be everything you can imagine it would be, I just wish you more luck than I have had and please beware of the the liars and manipulators out there.”Venus
The last three years in this lifestyle have been intense and beautiful and also disappointing. I have been blessed with some incredible mind-blowing experiences and met some truly amazing people and for that I’m grateful.
Having said that though, I think a person can only take so much of the dishonesty of some people and I’ve reached that point now. So I’m taking a break from it all and I don’t know if I will come back to it or not but for now I need to step away.
For all of the women who may be reading this, please don’t let this discourage you. This kind of relationship has the potential to be everything you can imagine it would be, I just wish you more luck than I have had and please beware of the the liars and manipulators out there. They are everywhere and they can be very sneaky and they can waste your time and even break your heart so don’t let your guard down and always trust your gut feelings about someone.
“The rest of them I’m assuming don’t exist or are locked firmly in the cuck closet and only they have the key to come out.” Venus
I’ve come to the conclusion that there are exactly 4 cucks in the city I live in – that’s it. The rest of them I’m assuming don’t exist or are locked firmly in the cuck closet and only they have the key to come out.
I’ve spent several months trying to find guys who are into the cuck lifestyle and I’ve had the most success online. Surprisingly cucks are everywhere! Well, everywhere except for Vancouver. I’ve been contacted from all over the world but mainly from the United States, and as you can imagine, the distance can make it really difficult to date someone. Ugh…so frustrating!
Even on Fetlife there are bustling cuck forums in so many cities, and the Vancouver forums…well, it’s like you can hear crickets.
So how come there seems to be so many cucks internationally and so few here in rainy Vancouver? I have yet to figure out the answer to this burning question of mine….
Anyone out there know? I’d love to hear from you – comment away!